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[Apr. 26th, 2004|09:22 am] |
Another rainy day...Spring is so unpredcitable. Life is a mess, this world if full of chaos.
Jodi, ur the best!! I Love you (bitch sluts of america are back in action!)
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[Apr. 22nd, 2004|09:15 am] |
I realized people can come back very quickly. Just goes to show how great of a come back people can make. Jackie Tighe she is back finaly! I like hanging out with her again and it's been a lot of fun talking to her. I realized that I can trust her...that's great considering I haven't talked to her in a while. She's fun to talk to we have a lot on common, that's good to realize.
Lately has been the same old stuff. It's came to my attention that when I get one friend back I lost some others in the process. Mel and Laura aren't coming back and I know that now. It's to late to try anymore. They never 100% left me but we dont hang out. :( People make decisions and there's a cause and effect to everything. Don't we all just hate !! Of course we do.
I wen't to a show with Cassie, Kes and Dave of course. It was on monday it was some fun I thought Maxeen was hott. Motion City Soundtrack sounds hott but they aren't soo hott. I got both of their Cd's and I go a sweatshirt of Maxeen. all and all the night was funn.
Nothing else really...Spring is here so Abbie is up and walking everywhere literaly!! hahahaha I love to walk now. Not so much in the winter but Jodi better not be to tired tonight bc I fucking want to go for a long walk! YEah man....
One later annoucement
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAURA. (Digi-Ultra-Laura-Beth)----18!! woop woop
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[Apr. 1st, 2004|10:11 am] |
Ups Downs...lefts, rights....who knows what is normal??
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[Mar. 30th, 2004|10:15 am] |
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hm...i handed in all my photo projects for this quarter...woopie doo.
While people say depressions sucks they don't realize that sometimes depressions is all people have to look forward to. I guess you never actually want to realize that some people are actually depressed for days or even a year...maybe some untill they need some help. They put on fake smiles when seeing somebody they care about, try not to cry when they are alone. And dont want to tell anybody so they wouldnt look differently at them. Although you may seem or feel like ur depressed for a day or a weekend. I would like you to think of a different word to say....Disappointed at the world, confused with life or even frustrated with yourself. People just annoy me today and lately they haven't left me alone. I try and try and then I fail even worst more so then normal.
nomral?..i would like to know if I ever had it ...if I did where the fuck did it go?! maybe you could tell me bc lately it just seems like my whole life has gone downt he drain!...ahh that felt really good although now im crying in photo class....its almost over i have to go stop crying soon enough...4 mintues untill lunch!....fuck that means the dreadful Ms.Gaskill is coming up...
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[Mar. 23rd, 2004|10:10 am] |
Is it really possible for everything to suck this much?
<3-ab |
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[Mar. 19th, 2004|10:17 am] |
[x] Part 1 -- The Basics [x]
What's your name? ::: Abby
Birthplace ::: miniola
Age ::: 15...
Age you act ::: I don't know. Christina said 18
Current location ::: Lindenhurst
Eye color ::: Brown
Hair color ::: Blonde-ish...brown
Right, lefty or ambidextrous? ::: Righty
Zodiac sign? ::: gemini
Height? ::: 5'6...and 1 half
[x] Part 2 -- Describe... [x]
Your heritage/nationality ::: Itailian, German and Irish...
Your hair ::: dirty blonde (hate the phrase), curly and getting longer by the day
Your fears ::: the world as I know it
Your perfect room ::: paints and pictures cleaverly placed on white walls.
What you practically do in a day ::: hmm...hang out work or school and phone.
[x] Part 3 -- What is/are... [x]
Words you overuse ::: amazing, really, ready
Phrases you overuse ::: Not to sure...
Your first thought when you wake up ::: argg....today?
Your greatest accomplishment ::: Making the right friends, liking the friends i've made.
Something you want to do ::: Get out of my house the second I can.
[x] Part 4 -- This or that [x]
Pepsi or Coke ::: Coke
McDonald's or Burger Kings ::: Burger King....I hate Mcdonald's
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera ::: Neither
Chocolate or vanilla ::: Vanilla
Adidas or Nike ::: Vans
Black or white ::: Black
Bills or Coins ((Think $$$)) ::: Bills
Burgers or hot dogs ::: Veggie burgers
Egypt or France ::: Italy
Rock or rap ::: Rock
[x] Part 5 -- Do you...[x]
Smoke ::: used to
Cuss ::: Who the hell doesnt
Sing well ::: Never did, never will.
Sing in the shower ::: No actually
Talk to yourself --a lot-- ::: Heheh :p
Believe in yourself ::: Depends...on my mooods
Like taking these longass surveys? ::: Not really.
Play an instrument ::: Guitar
Want to go to college? ::: Yes
Want to get married? ::: eh
Want to have children? ::: If I get married
Think you're a health freak? ::: ???
Get along with your parents ::: Who does??
Get along with your siblings? ::: Maybe?
Think you're popular ::: Nope
[x] Part 6 -- In the past month have you..[x]
Gone out of state ::: no
Drank alchohal ::: Yes
Smoke ::: Yes
Get high ::: No
Done any drugs ::: Nope
Eaten an entire box of oreos ::: No, I dont really like them.
Been on stage ::: Nope
Gone skinny dipping ::: nope
Been dumped ::: nope
Dyed your hair ::: not in the last month
Stolen anything ::: No
[x] Part 7 -- Your friends! =D [x]
Craziest ::: Cassie
Loudest ::: Christina
Most shy ::: Laura
Blondest ::: Haha...Cassie
Smartest ::: Jesse
Kindest ::: Jodi!!
Best personality ::: Everybody has a great personality in their own way.
Most talented ::: Um...
Best singer ::: Cynthia
Most ghetto ::: haha, cynthia
Drama Queen ((or King XP)) ::: umm...I don't think there is one??
Pain in the ass ::: Ha ha...
The one you just want to strangle to death ((Homer Simpson style))::: not sure yet :\
Funniest ::: Mourine
Best person for advice ::: Laura
Dependable ::: Laura and Cassie!
Trustworthy ::: Thats a hard question....I would have to say CAssie
Druggie ::: Mel
Most likely to end up in jail ::: not sure
Person you've known the longest ::: James
[x] Part 8 -- The Last... [x]
Last dream ::: dont remember
Last nightmare ::: that i died
Car ride ::: bus to school
Last time you cried ::: umm 3 am?
Last movie rented ::: I borrowed bring it on from Cassie
Last book read ::: to Kill a Mockingbird
Last word said ::: mourine
Last curse word said ::: Oh shit
Last time you laugh ::: fake...3 mintues ago.
Last phone call ::: 7 o'clock
Last CD played ::: Avenged SEvenfold
Last song you listened to ::: dont want to lose
Last annoyance ::: my LiL brother
Last IM ::: dunno
Last weird encounter ::: cassie random hyperness
Last person you hugged ::: cassie
Last person you yelled at ::: dunno
Last time you wore a skirt ::: a while ago
Last time you've been evil ::: cant remember
Sarcastic? ::: im always sarcastic
Played Truth or Dare ::: umm 8th grade
Spent quality time alone ::: never
<3-abby-<3 |
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[Mar. 19th, 2004|10:00 am] |
I am back at schoool. How interesting right? Well so far today has sucked major ass. Umm well yea it has. I had to take an itialian exam, make up a collected asignment in math. 100% on it thanks to a calculator and Sam. S.s took a test and it was hard. Now, what is making my day is Ms.P isn't here...yay!
That's it pretty much this weekend. Today im booked, yeah my grandpa is sleeping at my house for saturday and sunday. He gets my brothers room and my brother is sleeping in my room for 2 days. How fun, he's 10 years old...im not liking it. I have a family dinner on saturday and Sunday im working and going to Jessica Cervini's house after.
I should really get an orginizer. I might just get one...I know im going to forget something I have to do next week. I know that I dont have a Chiropractor appointment today. I stopped going. I need a different doctor, I don't feel comfortable around Him...the rapist. I don't really have anytime for anything else the next week. My mom told me I have to do somethings next week...I'm not to sure exactly what is it, I think I have an idea.
Im bored. Nothing else to say.....good bye
<3-Abby-<3 |
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[Mar. 15th, 2004|09:00 am] |
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I am tired of being tired. sick of being upset and just wanting to cry...
What a great way to start out the rest of my long week.
So there is an anniversary tomorrow and today really. well today is a birthday. 72, And tomorrow will be 2 years. I woke up just thinking of you.
I Love You
"Preparation is the key to life.." |
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[Mar. 10th, 2004|10:06 am] |
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This week sucks ass. I don't like it and i want it to be over already. This morning just was the worst of all. As the days in the weeks go on it just seems to get worse. People should just die...It would make my life easier. Blahh I hope everybody else's day was great so they can try to cheer me up a bit.
I think taht im just going to go home and sleep no cell phone and I am not going to answer any phone calls. It could be interesting..I almost fell asleep in History so i need some sleep |
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[Mar. 9th, 2004|06:26 pm] |
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1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I trust worthy?
3. How long have you known me?
4. What was your first impression?
5. Do you still think that way about me now?
6. What do you think my weakness is?
7. Do you think I'll get married?
8. What makes me happy?
9. What makes me sad?
10. What reminds you of me?
11. If you could give me anything what would it be?
12. How well do you know me?
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
14. Do you think I could kill someone?
15. Describe me in one word.
16. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
17. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
18. Do you or did you at one point think I hated you / Hated me for some reason.
<3-Abby-<3 |
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[Mar. 9th, 2004|10:14 am] |
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My day....
Woke up late again, Nicole went on her way home this morning and I won't see her untill the summer :(. School, No cigarettes but thats not a bad thing I really dont care about that anymore. Going to cassie's house hopefully if I dont feel weird. Then eye brows with mi madre. Exciting huh???
I didnt like that I just listed my day even tho nothing else is happening today. Lately I feel like even my best friend hates my life. She doesnt seem to confident that we are going to get through this hard time. Yet, I am almost possitive that I will get through it maybe if it takes untill vacation (which is in 19 days) I'll come back hopefully stronger and more willing to give people a chance. My mind isnt working lately. I dont think anything anymore, if i do its soo fucked up its not even funny. The last time i really laughed was saturday or sunday at cassie's house something about conditioning...i dont remember it anymore. It was funny I was crying funny...face beat red things like that.
So apparently my hair got really long and 4 people have said that to me today. 2 people have pulled my hair (James C and Lynne) my hair has been really annoying my neck recently. It's kinda itchy....ahh
Today hasn't been going well either its only tuesday somebody brang to my attention and it seems that this week will never end.
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[Mar. 8th, 2004|08:49 pm] |
today wasn't really that great. I dont no why but i felt like nobody liked me at all. It wasn't a good feeling. I sometimes say that for one day dont want to be noticed, I think I want to make myself completely miserable to realize the things I have surrounding me. It's weird I know I have been told yet I think sometimes it would make me think happier thoughts. Maybe change my outlook on life? Im not sure where im going with this though....
I really am on a quest for all these people who hate me. I have been told it's either people hate me or like me. Although I talk to a lot of people I dont know if im all that friendly. Lately I feel like I half ass everything I do. Sometimes I see a person in the hallway and I want to say "HI!!" and cheer them up but I dont. Last year I would have, even in novemeber but not now...not anymore. That cannot be a good thing It must mean im getting snobby, I don't want to be like everybody I dislike because they made fun of me. That would be 110% hypicritical.
I have been thinking about my grandma since thursday night, everytime I remember her, I get more detailed pictures in my mind. If that makes any sense to you. I miss her a lot and I wish I could just tell her. I never got to say my last peice to her like i wanted to I was to late didnt work hard enough. Bio sucks and i dont want to think nt happy thoughts anymore. I want normalcy back..if that is possible.
I feel like everytime somebody reads it they get sick and tired of reading it bc its about the same subject my grandmother. Yet, I just dont care if its on my mind i will write it down. Not all of its in here though.
right now cant do anything i want to sleep or i want some coffee....haha JODI!!!
<3-Abby-<3 |
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[Mar. 7th, 2004|10:32 pm] |
My inner child is sixteen years old!
Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while
adults might just accept that, I know
something's gotta change. And it's gonna
change, just as soon as I become an adult and
get some power of my own.
How Old is Your Inner Child?
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[Mar. 5th, 2004|10:14 am] |
Yea yesterday was a lot of fun. Cassie came over, we basically stayed at my house and did nothing but listen to music and talk. She needed gum so we took a walk to 711. Then we came back and did nothing for the rest of the time, yet I had fun.
Tonight im not sure whats going on anymore. I want to hang out with cassie bc a friday isnt a friday without her. Yet, I have a chiropractor's app. And I want to buy a cd. What I really want to do is get some pizza right now. Laura and I ...I think are still hanging out after school.
My back is killing me!!!
I am taking some pills now for my back and it makes me feel sooo incredably horrible all day. It is supposed to take away the inflimation in my mid back bc I pulled a ligament back in november. I have a head ache!
I really just want today to be over...school to be done already. This year has went by quickly yet I think about it and I still have untill June...Not as fast as I would enjoy.
IS today going to end??
Sure it always does...
Wish I could speed it up somehow.
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[Mar. 3rd, 2004|04:20 pm] |
today...
Sucked head ache...cassiy is hopfully coming over tomorrow after school.
Then friday Laura after school, chiropractor and then some sleep for work all weekend...
Interesting
right??
This week has been sucking like no tomorow..I might get switched out of my math class though! yay no more Mrs.B...I might pass my regents
Sorry sam I still love you
Blah blah.....
Nothing to say maybe i will later on....
<3Abbby<3_ |
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[Mar. 2nd, 2004|09:58 am] |
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The weekend was fun...mius a thing or two.
Friday...Pizza Hut and Cassie's house, I can say I had fun. Yet, It would have been better if she didn't fall asleep 1 hour before I had to go home. The next day I had to work untill 4 p.m then I went to the mall and got somethings and an outfit for Sam's sweet 16...then I get to Cassiy's house and her mom drove us to Sam's sweet 16 and then stayed there had some laughs...Went to the victory party for an hour. Just in time to see the Past Tense play and talked with the fellow marching banders...
Went to Cassiy's house and fell alseep.
That was my weekend. March is a very terrible month for me. Im not liking it already and it's only the second day. I was absent yesterday and I didn't even realize it was he first. Now I know why this month is harsh. My mother told me that on the 16th is the 2 years memorial for my grandmother. It doesn't even feel like 2 years I couldn't even believe it when it was one. I think of her at least 2 times a day everyday, something always reminds me of her. It doesn't seem like this year is getting easier...Life's twist and turns is what is going to send me to south oaks one day. I really just want march to be over already. I think personaly April would be better.
On a good note...Jesse Combs asked me to go to his senior prom with him and Im excited about it. I think it will be a lot of fun. We have to figure out what we are going to do for the weekend. And I jsut realized it was my cousin Lynne's senior prom to...Denise, Debbie, Kristina,Laura....
YAY!!! LAURA !! GO YOU....PASSED YOUR ROAD TEST!
I think that it should have been noticed for her good work ethic...haha
Can we skip a month?
Would that be possible.
It would make things easier...
Yet life is built to make people cry.
I think it should be more laughter then tears.
I dont even know anymore....
People just dont seem to care.
How can you not when she meant that much to you?
Family comes before anything....always remember that
Grandma ...3-15-32 Untill 3-16-02
You said you will always be there
Don't ever reget not knowing if it was true
You gave us faith and you are keeping the family together.
I love you
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[Feb. 27th, 2004|01:43 am] |
I must say tonight was aLOT of fun...
Tom L. My buddy from last year is home from college and gave me good news he's staying this time. He called me out of the blue and we went to the Lindencrest had coffee. talked with his 2 friends niceeee people. We descovered me a 15 year old looks older then a 19 year old. Very kewl. I still don't believe it but I guess what 5 people say is better then what I think. We then proceeded to go to Janna's house were her friend was. Then we had a long long talk about sex's and politics. It was fun. I just got home literaly. Then I realized im going to like going away to college. I honestly don't care who I dorm with as long as I have the best experiance of my life.
I liked living in a world I don't normaly get introduced to. I talked like I was 17 years old and got treated the same. This year so far was shit but this was deffinatly the time of the whole year I will remember. The fact that my sister's friends called me to hang out. It was a lot of fun and I wound up having a lot to say. Got to meet different people and just talked. Im not even tired right now. It may sound really retarded but Those people I hope don't forget me soon. They have always treated me equaly even when they knew my age. Yes like a sister yet also as a friend. That to me is soo kewl of them to realize everybody has feelings.
Noww do not get my wrong I have been having a lot of fun with my other friends and I only wish that Cassiy was there with me because even though she would be silent for a while. I think she would have got into the discussion. I honestly wouldn't mind if they met her. Not sure what her parents nor her sister would think. She would learn a lot from the diversities there were there tonight.
The talks we had made me think so much differently of my high school and what I want to do in life. I say this now knowing that tomorrow when I wake up I wont care again. I hope that I look back to remember all of the fun and life lesson's I have learned tonight. Half of the things I have done this year will not ever compare to the conversations I was had going the past couple of hours. Drugs, beer and stupidity will never pay off if I dont start to realize it now. Don't get me wrong I will try my hardest and I only hoped this talk would have happened a long time ago. I know it's high school and you have to have fun. I just don't want to blow the one chance I have of prooving my whole family and myself wrong. My grades need to change and my attitude is a lot different now. I want to go away so bad, I dont care how much it will cost. I think I could make it only because I like to meet new people and I try to talk to most of them. I don't look at the gender or their sexuality and that is a great characteristic to have at my age. Now I think im sounding alittle cocky but im not to sure...
"This is one of those nights that will effect your out look on life. You just don't know how much it meant to me..."
<3-Abbie-<3
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[Feb. 26th, 2004|08:15 pm] |
So things aren't really getting that much better lately. My school it's still going down hill. I just finished To kill a Mockingbird in english. I'm going to re-read the book this weekend so I can pass the over exam on it. SO I will go into Shakespear with decent grades.
S.s I think I did a good enough effort on a writing assignment. I mean I was looking at other kids and I deff wrote more descriptive things then that. I hope he grades it. His wife is having a kid and my whole class is wondering what he's going to name this one. I have a very kewl sub though.
Hmmm...what else.
My english teacher called and Now im only aloud out one day this weekend. And hopefully my mom will forget. I dunno if she will ... lots to consider in this situation.
I hate that everything everybody does has cause and effect. I really dislike that. I mena sometimes it's alright. for example. I hate that people naturaly lie or as they say "Stretch the truth" yeah i can understand stretching the truth. yet it depends on how far a person would take it. when they say one thing and Post on ur journal one thing. They shouldn't say another to a close friend. Well I think that half of the school population should just stop talking. After they open their mouths that's it all lies. I hate liars...The truth and trust are the 2 biggest things for me in a person. I hope u all knew that...
Anything else??
I hate thinking. See I was just talking to myself. How weird is that?? There we go now im going to think.
So apparently "Nut-meg" Is a drink u drink around Christmas time...even though its "Egg-nogg"...hahahaha laughs for 2 minutes.
Hahahahahaa
<3-Abbie-<3 |
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[Feb. 23rd, 2004|09:59 pm] |
I wish that all of my fears aren't coming true.
I'm soo scared
"I dont know whats going to happen, things get mis-interpreted. Thing are going to say and mean different things. I apparently am a bad influence on most people. Yet I think my life is my life and people should get to know me better...then make stong judgement's about me.."
No closer is possible. I dont want anything to lose anything...
<3-Abbie-<3 |
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